Dreaming of Being Awake

All before me as a rain of fire,
These pains are near and far.
Show me Your face,
Clean my mind,
I claim innocence...

Inside my flesh, You reign.
Electricity in my sinews...
Every nerve on end...
Thoughts are clear...
All I can think of...
Is You.

This moment of tranquility,
This second that seems like a year,
This blurring of the lines,
I seek.
I seek Your face upon me.
Please look upon Your servant...
Hungry, scared, entombed in his own mind,
A laborer of fruits he does not want to bear.

Scared of things unknown,
Nonetheless I know You are here with me.
I know you are in lead of me...
behind me...
and beside me...
My Perfect Shield.

Give me understanding,
Do not hide Your face from me, Lord.
Just as when Penuel was named,
For jacob said;
"I have seen God face to face,
and my life is preserved.".
I am sealed, but...
I have yet not laid eyes on You.

If Your glory takes my life,
It would only be passing into Life with You...
Thus I don't fear.
Electrifying is Your touch.
I am still alive in You,
I am alive forevermore in You.

Though I am dead, You are the only thing alive in me.
Dead and alive I am...
Do not hide Your face from me, Lord.

Μέσω της ρωγμές (Through the Cracks)

I see the truth now, I see it clear.
The things that You show me break my core.
All this time, these things that have been told me,
What am I to believe but You?
I need Your wine, no substance on Earth can fulfill me.

Bring me to my knees as i should be, for glory is You.
Forgive my misled heart, take it and place it upon the anvil.
Mold it, reshape it, cleanse it.
My heart is wicked in all its ways...

But my soul God!! My soul it longs for You.
A never ending hunger, quenchable for only a short time.
I extend my hands to You, in effort to grab a hold of Your hem...
Only to find myself needing the Blood over and over.

But I see through the cracks now, and I fear not.
For I know You will guide me. I know You will love me when no one else may.
Give it Lord. All You have to give.