LOVE

For You God I live, really it is because of You I live.
How humbling and moving it is to know that because of Your death, I have life. How mysterious!
Beyond that You have resurrected and ascended, and where You are I may be there soon!
I love You Iseous, Adonai!

Killing Myself

So kill (deaden, deprive of power) the evil desire lurking in
                your members [those animal impulses and all that is earthly in you that is employed
                in sin]: sexual vice, impurity, sensual appetites, unholy desires, and all greed  and  covetousness, for that is idolatry (the deifying of self
                and other created things instead of God).
Colossians 3:5 AMP

Reading this tonight I get a sense of unholiness that I don't necessarily know if I should have or not. I mean sure, according to the promise of God I am Born Again by my trust in what Christ has done, but I still battle a few things mentioned here in this one verse.
Is there something wrong with me? Something I cannot get away from no matter what? Why is it I seek deliverance from my problems but I still battle them?

Crazy times, impending doom, and a quiet place in my head...

Sitting here with my wife feeding our babygirl (1mth) I think on all the crazy disasters and weird times we live in, then I remember all the different things the biblical authors led by the Spirit of GOD wrote about the signs of the returning Messiah... and I can't help but wonder; am I ready? Am I and the Christians I know ready for this?

I believe now would be a good time to start re-evaluating our walk... are we just being those" Christians" who act just like the world? Or are we genuinely I love with Jesus and things we do show it?

Still remains a feeling i've had for a good few weeks now too... there seems to be a vast dark space in my mind. I don't know what it is or where it is coming from but it is a lonely place I keep subconsciously going to. Pray for me, that if I get lost in this dark ocean I don't forget who I am.